A BRIT singing sensation has opened up about his crippling anxiety after being brutally attacked and left with a broken jaw.
The 29-year-old star has admitted he was too frightened to leave his house following the violent life-changing incident.
Singer Tom Grennan has revealed he was left with mental scars after being the victim of an unprovoked attack.
Aged just 17, the star has told Pete Wicks about the horrific ordeal in which he was beaten by three men.
Appearing on Pete Wicks' new podcast Man Made, Tom said about the 'random attack': "I got held by three guys, bear hugged, so I couldn't move and just kept getting pounded in my face.
"I was there, couldn't move whilst taking the punches and I think that – well, 17, just turning 18 and that flipped life on its head, where it demasculated me, do you know what I mean? Whatever that word is.
"I was like, you've completely ripped out every little bit of confidence, every little bit of me, I wasn't me anymore. From that little moment, completely has changed my whole life.
"I had to rebuild everything and I think that's obviously where my anxiety came from, the beginning of it."
The Little Bit Of Love singer added: "I think understanding of who I was, more than being a man. It was more just like, who am I? What have I got to do now to be better or just be me again?"
He told Strictly star Pete: "Mate, I couldn't leave the house. The thoughts, man. I was like if I'm not me, then f**k it."
The singer, who suffers from anxiety, said: "I've still got it, mate. If I was sticking it on the geezer or if I was annoying him or if I was being loud and if I was antagonising him, I'd have had a better understanding of because I probably deserved it.
"I thought, oh my God everybody loves me, I'm good, life is sweet, and then that happened. Then I thought, my God, everybody hates me. I lost a year of being at home, I was just at home. I lost friends, I became angry.
"Not understanding why these people have done this to me. I was so angry. I don't know how deep I can go, if this could even be on the podcast, but I remember saying to my mum, I remember going, I'm going to kill myself.
"She was like, what? I was like yeah, but I'm going to go kill them first. I remember trying to leave the house and I didn't know where they were and my mum was so scared that I was going to go kill somebody and then kill me. That f***ed my mum up, it f***ed me up, man, it was deep."
On using therapy to help him through, the It Can't Be Christmas singer admitted: "I've done it previously and then I've dipped out and then I dip in and dip out, but right now I'm in because I think for me, having an understanding of where these feelings and why my mind goes to the places it goes to. A therapist can't be like, this is why.
"I think having a space to be able to talk, this is like a therapy thing for me right now because having a place to talk openly and freely about anything is amazing.
"I leave a room, I'm like, okay, now I feel a bit lighter now and I think that's why I'm in it at the moment, because I've got a lot of pressure.
"I've got a lot of big life events happening and it's just being able to navigate them so I don't then start fires in my head and in reality, I can easily fall off a cliff and start creating fires."
Born in Bedford on June 8, 1995, Grennan first started singing at gigs in London at the age of 18.
However, his big break came when featured on Chase and Status' 2016 single All Goes Wrong.
His friends encouraged him to pursue a music career after seeing him performing The Kooks at a house party.
In his early music years, he was scouted at a Finsbury pub and offered a record deal with Insanity Records.
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