POPSTAR Jessie J poured out her heart on Instagram as she reached the two-week post-surgery milestone amid her cancer battle.
Jessie, 37, previously revealed she doesn't yet know if she's cancer free after her mastectomy.
The musician had the operation a fortnight ago in a bid to beat her breast cancer, yet has now admitted to suffering "delayed sadness and frustration" as the reality of her health situation hits.
The Price Tag vocalist told her online following she was creating space to be "angry and sad" and mourn the loss of her breast.
Previously mum-of-one Jessie, who was left in tears in a heartbreaking video taken straight after surgery, took to her page for a series of lengthy text posts.
Two weeks on, she reflected on her health whirlwind and said: "My experience was when I got diagnosed I went into survival mode.
"There was so much going on with appointments …
"I didn't really have a lot of time to process what was happening or what was going to happen.
"So I'm currently experiencing some delayed sadness and frustration by having time to process what IS happening."
The Flashlight songstress continued: "A little disappointed in myself I didn't say goodbye to my old boob enough. Sounds silly but that's where I'm at.
"Again thats my journey. I'm sure others felt and did it different.
"But for me I didn't think beyond the surgery. I was just being strong.
"Well now I'm here and letting myself be angry and sad and all the things. Just for a few days. Then I will sew some padding in a bra to even them out order some t shirts and crack tf on."
Talking about another milestone, she started a fresh slide and wrote: "Had my drain out 2 nights ago. She said breathe in and take a hard breath out.
"She whipped that thang out so quick. Woiii oii. Weirdest feeling.
Jessie J's cancer diagnosis statement in full
THE singer took to social media with a candid video where she revealed her news.
She said: "Before No Secrets came out, I was diagnosed with early breast cancer. I'm highlighting the word early.
"Cancer sucks in any form, but I'm holding on to the word early I have been in and out of tests throughout this whole period, I just wanted to be open and share it, one because selfishly, I do not talk about it enough.
"I'm not processing it because I'm working so hard. I also know how much sharing in the past has helped me with other people giving me their love and support and also their own stories. I'm an open book.
"It breaks my heart that so many people are going through so much similar and worse, that's the bit that kills me.
"I just want to and just let you guys know it wasn't something I'd planned. But yeah, I'm getting to keep my nipples. That's good.
"It's a weird topic and a weird situation, and I know that the press are going to say crazy stuff, but you know, what to get diagnosed with this as I'm putting out a song called No Secrets right before, a song called Living My Best Life.
"Which was all pre planned before I found out about this. I mean, you can't make it up. It's a very dramatic way to get a boob job.
"I am going to disappear for a bit after summertime ball to have my surgery, and I will come back with massive t**s and more music."
"But so nice to have it out after 12 days. Now it's just me and my wonky boobs trying to figure out how to dress until I match them up.
"The left one is looking at the right one like 'you ok babe?'"
After uploading appreciation posts for her mum, who has moved into her home, and her basketball player partner Chanan Colman, she posed a video showing her wearing a white top.
In an unkind caption directed towards herself, she wrote: "Proof of looking like s***. Goodnight."
Straight after her operation, Jessie previously admitted she was struggling not being able to pick up her two-year-old son, Sky.
Yet she was swiftly forced to clarify she was not "cancer free" after some fans misinterpreted her comments.
TOUGH JOURNEY
Jessie revealed she had been diagnosed with breast cancer in June with a hugely emotional statement.
Incredibly, she went ahead and performed at this year's Capital Summertime Ball in London on June 15.
Jessie held back tears as she told the crowd at Wembley Stadium that she was taking a break to "beat breast cancer".
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